Dear Reader,
I am scared. I am terrified and angry.
my mind is filled with anxious thoughts that paralyze my body, I can't move, I can't think clearly.
I just stop and wish to avoid to forget the pain and rage that encapsulates my mind every single day.
That's right I live in anguish every waking moment, which is why once I loved death way too much.
I am profoundly tired. Searching for an answer, waiting for someone to save me. When they do, I refuse their help. What do I do with this anxiety in my mind which terrifies me.
As a child, I got beaten badly many days, others I lived in fear of being hit or being made to kneel down while this monster threatened to break my hands and legs. Now dear reader, do you know what shadows follow me everyday and why I am so terrified. So utterly afraid of my incompetence, of not having the courage to defend myself nor fight back against this cruel monster who has filled my life with sadness and despair.
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